Wisdom.

The more I know the less I understand and all the things I thought I've figured out I have to learn again.

-Don Henley.

two statements.

-somedays I feel as though Im alone in this world trying to endure it through all this pain.
-other days I believe and know I am a child of God who is made by his hands and was purposed before i was even conceived.


today, I am the first statement. I need to believe the second for my life breath today.

God please show me your beauty today.

Season of life.

Where Im at now is summarized in this following statement:

"Do not let others change who you are, or where you go in life. Only God has that power".

I am often too swayed or change myself to fit the thinking of others, or adapt to my surroundings. Today I stand tall in my single-hood, my academia, my walk with God, my love for others, and my choices I am (trying) wisely making everyday.

signed,

Jessica

Props... to Mayda del Valle

This poem isn't everything I believe, nor does the whole thing pertain to certain instances in my life.
I respect the lines in this poem, and some of it pertains to my life, and most of it is true.
I just wanted to be clear before you read Mayda del Valle's "To all the boys I've loved before".

she speaks with so much power. wow.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k9tlQMSovCk

above is the link to view it, and the lyrics.

Darfur.

I lay still in my room, trying to rid my thoughts of what I have seen/hear tonight.
I am a pro at not dealing, at pushing it down or to the side. I am a professional procrastinator.

Although I lay in my bed tonight I thought "now that I have seen - I am responsible. Faith without deeds is dead". As I walked out of the theatre half way through the movie, I thought his line of brooke frasers song "Albertine".

I don't know what I'll do, or who I will become but all I know is - faith without deeds is dead.

I cannot let go till you are.....

I wanna know

that you hung the stars in the sky, So on lonely nights I would know your presence.

.decisions/fear.

Why do things happen, why don't they happen.
I never profess to do the right thing, but I try so hard to.
I wake up everyday being afraid the decisions I make will be the wrong ones.

So I question things, why does this happen, why doesn't it happen - and the answer these days seems to be because I can't
even make up my own mind.