depicting real life.

Photo by Brandt Russo

Something I've come to realize is that pictures can cover up a thousand experiences of pain.

Facebook is a great tool if used wisely, but the thing I find the most fake about this website are the pictures. They are never an accurate depiction of life. So why do we try so hard to touch up our pictures, pose for the camera, and post as many pictures as possible for facebook, twitter, and other social networking sites.

Im not saying that family life is not a wonderful place, because I know some amazing families that create love and laugther in one anothers lives. Im saying these pictures and the number of them do not depict the true and real lives of people.

Don't get me wrong I am NOT saying my family is the worst one yet - they are amazing people, I just know in my 25th year the one thing I realize about my family is that we are all broken, jaded, shattered individuals who have experienced pain and sorrow. My family has been broken in part by lies, revenge, hurtful events, and misunderstandings These pictures don't say that about our lives, they don't show our wounds, because we can touch them up and perfect them with adobe photoshop or iphoto or whatever.

In my real life, the only thing that can take away the hurtful, painful images is God. The only who sent His son, to die in place of each and everyone of us. This analogy may be corny or cheesy, but in this pain stricken time of our lives, the only thing we can and MUST hold onto, is the redeeming love of God.

"my chains are gone, I've been set free, my God my Saviour has ransomed me. And like a flood His mercy reigns, unending love, amazing grace."

Wisdom.

The more I know the less I understand and all the things I thought I've figured out I have to learn again.

-Don Henley.

two statements.

-somedays I feel as though Im alone in this world trying to endure it through all this pain.
-other days I believe and know I am a child of God who is made by his hands and was purposed before i was even conceived.


today, I am the first statement. I need to believe the second for my life breath today.

God please show me your beauty today.

Season of life.

Where Im at now is summarized in this following statement:

"Do not let others change who you are, or where you go in life. Only God has that power".

I am often too swayed or change myself to fit the thinking of others, or adapt to my surroundings. Today I stand tall in my single-hood, my academia, my walk with God, my love for others, and my choices I am (trying) wisely making everyday.

signed,

Jessica

Props... to Mayda del Valle

This poem isn't everything I believe, nor does the whole thing pertain to certain instances in my life.
I respect the lines in this poem, and some of it pertains to my life, and most of it is true.
I just wanted to be clear before you read Mayda del Valle's "To all the boys I've loved before".

she speaks with so much power. wow.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k9tlQMSovCk

above is the link to view it, and the lyrics.

Darfur.

I lay still in my room, trying to rid my thoughts of what I have seen/hear tonight.
I am a pro at not dealing, at pushing it down or to the side. I am a professional procrastinator.

Although I lay in my bed tonight I thought "now that I have seen - I am responsible. Faith without deeds is dead". As I walked out of the theatre half way through the movie, I thought his line of brooke frasers song "Albertine".

I don't know what I'll do, or who I will become but all I know is - faith without deeds is dead.

I cannot let go till you are.....

I wanna know

that you hung the stars in the sky, So on lonely nights I would know your presence.